Not a lot about modern society (except perhaps its apparent
impending demise) genuinely grieves me; a trend in responses to the Charleston
Massacre has done that. Every day I see
people – Christians, Pastors, Academics, Intellectuals, and many who fit
into none of the above categories – condemning the families of the Emmanuel
Nine. I’ve heard people call them names,
say they were in denial, and say they hadn’t properly processed their grief.
I’m grateful to my friend, neighbor, and colaborer in
Christ, Rev. Jose Humphries, for helping me find my voice on this. As much as I love to write, there is much to be said for verbal exchange. As we
chatted today, we acknowledged that, thankfully, neither of us has ever been in
the position of the families of those massacred. We can’t know how we would behave. I cannot find it in myself to begin to
dictate, define, or describe what might be appropriate behavior in such a situation.
Much is being made of their acts of forgiveness. Somehow it seems these acts of forgiveness
are being co-opted by the talking head du jour as some sort of symbolic
statement on how people of color should respond to tragedy. No mention is made of the fact
that people of color have had to develop superhuman capacities for forgiveness
and an otherworldly reliance on the Divine simply to endure their physical
journey in an atmosphere of systemic oppression. No, no mention is made of that. In my
opinion, failure to acknowledge that fact is a reflection on the commentators
and a reflection of the dominant culture.
It takes nothing away from the injured people’s need, ability, and
spiritual desire to free themselves from the ravages of unforgiveness.
But somehow it seems those who would comment are conflating
and/or equating the spiritual practices of those who would forgive with the
transgressions of those who continue to inflict pain and cause havoc. Maybe this is why the Bible tells us to first
take the speck out of our own eyes. A
long time ago, a very wise man helped me understand that the only things I can
control are my own attitudes and behaviors.
Consequently, I don’t care much about nor pay much attention to what the
dominant culture says or thinks about me (although I will admit to being pissed
off when I can’t be scruffy on a Saturday and go into a department store
without being followed around; I’ve finally learned to use that to my advantage,
though – now I just hover around the register and amaze people at how quickly I
get serviced!).
But it seems that the dominant culture, the media, the
talking heads du jour – whomever one chooses to name – it seems there is this inclination to point
to these people in their grief, who are responding to spiritual savagery
visited upon them by invoking the spiritual principles that have always
undergirded them – it seems there is an inclination to point to these
particular people in this particular situation and say “See, Black folk, THAT’S
how you ought to respond when people visit atrocities upon you.”
And that thought, of course, is complete bullshit. Remember above when I said the only things I
can control are my attitudes and my behaviors?
That’s true. It’s true for me, it’s true for you, and it's true for every member of the dominant culture. It’s just not
appropriate and it doesn’t work for someone to point to anyone else and tell them how to
forgive. Forgiveness is noble and
laudable, that is true. But one cannot
morally speak to people of color or any oppressed people about the moral superiority of forgiveness
without acknowledging the systems created that caused many among them to have a predilection towards and nearly superhuman capacity for,
forgiveness. And one certainly can’t speak to oppressed people in America about the virtue of forgiveness
without also speaking about the virtues of freedom, justice, and equality. You cannot morally speak to me about my need to forgive without first addressing your need to let justice roll down like a river or righteousness like an ever-flowing stream.
As I said, I’m not responsible for your attitudes or
your behaviors. Thankfully, I’m not in a
place where I have to forgive people who massacred my loved ones. But I do know that as long as you have a
log of systemic racism, or a tree trunk of inequality in your eyes, and as
long as you live in a forest of privilege-fueled oppression – as long as those
conditions exist, they morally disqualify you from speaking about the speck of violence
that occurs in my community after other atrocities are visited upon it. And if you still choose to speak, know that I will neither listen nor be able to hear you. The logs in your eyes and the forest you live
in will render your words as but noisy gongs or clanging cymbals.
And yes, for that and other transgressions, you will still be forgiven. You’ll be forgiven because in order to live
in the hellish environment you’ve created, all I could do was to take on the
mantle of Christ and His teachings. I
have to forgive, no matter for what, and no matter how many times. I do that for my own wellbeing, not for
yours. I forgive you because I’m
responsible for my attitudes and my behaviors, and forgiveness is what I know,
believe, and have been taught is right.
That's my attitude and prayerfully that will be my behavior. But what about you?