Sweat; waiting at WF

Some women "glisten." I sweat. Like a racehorse. I think it's hormonal -- it's been much more pronounced since the cancer, but I remember my mother sweating so much that she'd pass out, and I remember her having to take salt tablets to stop her from sweating.

Today I ran some errands in midtown. There are just SOOOOO many people in midtown Manhattan! Anyway, I run my errands and hit the Whole Foods in Chelsea. They have an Indian Bar which is usually pretty good. The young man, Jason or something, who was stocking the hot food bars told me it would be 5-10 minutes before the Indian bar was stocked. I waited what seemed like 15-20 minutes and then left. Whole Foods can take my Whole Paycheck or my Whole Time, but they can't do both. One of the other guys suggested I complain to customer service. Nah, I ain't trying to get a brother in trouble, but I don't know when I'll return to the Chelsea Whole Foods.

I did go up to the one at Columbus Circle, and was in and out in probably 20 minutes. On the ride up from Chelsea to 59th Street, I was in a subway car with no AC. Which takes us back to sweating.

Now, I believe that sweating is healthy. It helps the body cool off and it helps us eliminate toxins from our system. So my body starts to sweat, slowly at first, and a fine film (the glistening) covers my body. It looks really cool because I use this Nivea body oil and my forearms have moderate definition and not a lot of body fat, so it looks kinda cool. For about 10 minutes. After that, the torrential sweating starts. It just beads up on stop to ask if I'm ok (one of my friends helped me understand it's because profuse sweating is a symptom of an upcoming heart attack). But today I had on light-colored pants, and I was afraid to put my arms on my pants for fear of leaving big wet marks of sweat (with body oil residue). So I sat and I sweated and I sweated. Did I mention I was drinking a cup of coffee? I couldn't finish all of it because I kept dripping sweat into the cup, and I couldn't not drip sweat into the cup because it was all in my eyes and I couldn't see anything... I had some tissue in my bag, but as soon as I dabbed it to my forehead, it was wet and limp and useless.

To add to all this, as much as I think sweating's a good and natural function, I also think it looks really gross outside a gym, and can only wonder what people think of me.

The good think is that when I got upstairs from the subway, between the water on my body and the mild temperature outside, it was quite refreshing. So sweat can be good, even if it looks horrible and gross.

Off to the gym now.